I’ve never written something like this before.
This isn’t a success story.
It’s a line in the sand.
For years I’ve struggled with my relationship to money — not just with earning it, but keeping it, growing it, and even believing I was allowed to have it. I’ve worn the cloak of the “capable underdog,” the “generous to a fault” friend, the one who always had talent but never seemed to break through.
This post is the first stake I’m driving into the earth to say:
No more.
Where I’ve Been
I grew up in a home that was safe, loving, but not wealthy.
My earliest memories of money were small, occasional coins from my grandfather or the fleeting excitement of 50p from the Tooth Fairy. That excitement faded fast once I realised how rarely the Tooth Fairy showed up if I didn’t report the lost tooth myself.
Since then, my relationship with money has been marked by three shadows:
- Scarcity: I’ve believed that wealth is something inherited, not created.
- Shame: I’ve spent impulsively in the past to escape feelings, not to build a life.
- Sabotage: I’ve held onto the idea that financial freedom was for “other people.”
My Realisations
Recently, I did a deep reflective exercise — a kind of inner audit — and I discovered some truths that hit me like lightning:
- I’ve been afraid of success because I didn’t trust myself with money.
- I’ve punished myself for my past choices by staying small.
- I’ve been waiting for someone to give me permission to rise, instead of claiming it myself.
But most powerfully, I’ve realised this:
“I deserve to be wealthy and financially free.
It’s OK to amass so much money that the first half of my life looks nothing like the second.
Abundant wealth will make me stronger and better, enabling me to transform my life and the lives of those I care about the most.”
What Changes Now
I’m not writing this to show off.
I’m writing it for accountability, clarity, and alignment.
Here’s what I’m doing starting today:
- Treating money like a flow, not a fluke.
- Moving my body every day to signal to myself that I am worth caring for.
- Reconnecting with people I trust, and rebuilding the network I thought I lost.
- Forgiving myself. Completely. No strings. No drama. Just done.
- Building projects and systems that can hold — and deserve — real wealth.
I’m not announcing a grand plan to make millions in 30 days.
But I am declaring this:
I will no longer speak of myself as broke, incapable, or unworthy.
An Invitation
If you’ve ever felt like you were meant for more, but held back by invisible weights… I see you.
And if you want to walk this new chapter with me — not for hype, but for healing — let’s talk.
Let’s build real wealth, rooted in self-respect.
Let’s stop trading our self-worth for scraps.
Let’s become the people we were always meant to be.
In Closing
I’m not becoming rich just to own more things.
I’m becoming rich because I finally understand that I am the asset.
And it’s time I invested accordingly.
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